Wednesday, July 28, 2010 what?

So, I turned 30 on 7/24 and I must say that it actually FEELS like I'm older now.
It's amazing how much more freedom we experience by turning a year older.

Sometimes we get stuck in a specific mindset or a way of thinking...but when we realize that we're getting older, it causes us to take a look at our point of view and paradigm on life and figure out if that's the mindset we want to take into the next year of our life.

When I think about this journey that I'm on, I realize that everything is happening in my life at the appointed time. There are phases and changes that I am going through that should be happening right now instead of times in the past or future.
So, it's not for me to wonder, "why now," or "why me?," but it's for me to just walk it all out, make my mistakes, learn the lessons and keep it moving.

Woke up this morning
Smile was on my face
New opportunities
Today I will embrace
Yesterday is dead and gone
And I'm moving on
Great things in store for me
Walking in my Victory

No chains holding me
Walking towards destiny
I am, I am

Monday, July 19, 2010


Soon, I'll be celebrating my 30th birthday (less than one week)!
It's interesting because when I think back to age 21 and where I thought I'd be by age 30 it might seem somewhat depressing. We make all these plans when we're young about the house we'll live in, the car we'll drive, the career and family we'll have and then none of it happens that way. But, I am soooo grateful for the journey I'm on and the path that has gotten me to this point in life. I've gone through a lot of experiences that have prepared me for the next phase of adulthood. I am experiencing a freedom like none other because I know that EVERYTHING is alright.

When I was going through the transitioning process, it was difficult for me to see what the texture of my natural hair was. So, I would often get discouraged because it just seemed like I wasn't making any progress. Then, my hair started growing much faster. And as I worked through it with different natural styles, I started to notice more texture at the roots and was then able to envision the hair that would start to cover my entire head.

I look at my life the same way. Now, instead of making so many "plans," I am envisioning the life I want to live and I am working towards the vision. God has something so great in store for me and I want to be in tuned enough to see it and patient enough to work and wait for it.

"Life is a Journey, not a destination. There are no regrets, just chances we've taken." India Arie

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

true to self

I straightened my hair yesterday and I feel somewhat strange.
I know it sounds weird, but I've been wearing my hair in natural styles for a while now, without straightening it.
Well, I wanted to straighten it for a photo shoot I did and once I did that, I didn't want to wear it that way for long.
I've gotten compliments over the past couple of days and I see how much my hair has grown, but part of my spirit feels low!
Why is it that peole always compliment the "straight" look?
I mean, I get compliments about my hair period, but I've noticed that I get complimented more when my hair is straight.
I don't like that.
I feel like washing my hair and twisting it so I can get back to my "normal" self.
I feel "regular."
I don't like feeling true self has evolved over the past year and I don't feel a connection to this "look" anymore!
I won't keep my hair like this too much longer!
Oh well, this was a random post but I just wanted to share my thoughts.